zoom zoom to a far away land
boo!=( i miss seeing my parents having been stuck away at work every night. seeing them today happily chattering away makes me happy and sad all at once. i really hate to go overseas.. SIGH! i wanna cry!

theres a scary sense of venturing out but it seems like a totally exciting adventure too.
1. God could use this opportunity to teach me to totally trust and lean on Him being alone over there.
2. i would definitely learn to be more independent and i could go tour around too!=)

but leaving everything behind is scary!=/ theres still time to readjust to the thought though...
worry too much too early! haha

bitchy work people=( Lord i pray you continue to give me patience and understanding and forgiveness. lovely nice passengers please!=)

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poignant and sanguine

i think these 2 words look nice=) haha

well saw this phrase stuck in some advert in the school toilet.

a dream you dream together is a reality
-John Lennon.

sigh! dreams dreams..

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00:43|16.10.06

trust
wisp of you

TRUST Him in adversity and He'll show you the way. keep the faith going because you know He as put enough reserve in you to last.

AND He'll show His good and perfect will one day. he showers encouragement and perks too=)

TRUST - SIXPENCE NONE THE RICHER

Trust in the Lord
With all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make your path straight
Don't worry about tomorrow
He's got it under control
Just trust in the Lord
With all your heart
And he will carry you through

Lord, sometimes it gets so tough
To keep my eyes on you when things are going rough
But then I turn my eyes up to the sky
and I hear your voice
It says to me:

Trust in the Lord
With all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make your path straight
Don't worry about tomorrow
He's got it under control
Just trust in the Lord
With all your heart
And he will carry you through

And He will carry you through !
=)

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00:24|07.10.06

ALL to you
Surrender
by Marc James

I'm giving You my heart
All that is within
I lay it all down
For the sake of You my King
I'm giving You my dreams laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride
For the promise of new life

And I Surrender
All to You, all to You

I'm singing You this song
I'm waiting at the Cross
All the world holds dear
I count it all as loss
For the sake of knowing You
For the glory of Your name
To know the lasting joy
Even sharing in Your pain

its been a LONG LONG time here! anw this song pops up occassionally whenever i still feel as if im trying to control things. which is pretty much everything! haha control freak. anws just thought its rather amazing that He has slowly infiltrated some Christian songs into my mind at times to remind and sustain me. It'd never had happened without His blessings. just wish i'd let go more and be comfortable letting go. let go of my thinking of going through life without His guidance. yep but im still very thankful He's walking through this with me! =) HOORAY to Him

its true! many things in life starts to seem a little better if we just let go of every form of malice lingering around. no doubt the process kinda sucks stimes but im at peace in a sense that i know He has plans for me and He'll see me through this.

arh guess prelims' kinda getting me!
but He's with me everyday=) with my mum who never seems to stop buying food to eat. haha glutton! friends to study with. church pals to keep us all going.
yep He's good to me=)
wish i had a little more though... but knowing its no use struggling with Him.
gotta learn to surrender!

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00:37|09.09.06

some verses
Remember your God

Numbers 15: 37-41

"The Lord said to Moses, "Speak to the Israelites and say to them: 'Throughout the generations to come you are to make tassels on the corners of your garments, with a blue cord on each tassel. You will have these tassels to look at and so you will remember all the commands of the Lord and you may obey them...."

blue's the colour of the skies!=) something i can relate to when i fly to keep as a reminder that God is ALWAYS looking over us=)

felt quite safe flying today hee=)

having company

Romans 15:2

"Each of us should please his neighbour for his good, to build him up."

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

" Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work;

If one falls down, his friend can help him up..."

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19:58|01.06.06

study date 2!=)
YAY =D just found out how i could post photos!<3 hehe photos at AMK lib with sikhi!=)
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HUGE treat by sikhi's mum

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oreo ice cream cake

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messy study table. buttt... at least its a big one that we chopped! hehe=p

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study pals=) of course with many more study dates with more seveners VERY SOON!=)

YAYNESS!!

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happiness=) but he's without hobbes! haha

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19:36|01.06.06

reminiscence
its times like walking through places that are so familiar becoming a strange one now that makes me miss

its times like taking the bus makes me feel cold and sleepy

its time that when words wont seem to come out right that silence prevails

yet silence can be so beautiful and yet so nervewrecking

but no matter what

missing motivates changes. for real
one step at a time..

Lord. have your way

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22:08|30.05.06

study DATE!=)
wahaha studied with my crazy lab partner today=)

relieved the days of studying with my last six girls. MAN!! i miss all of you!=( wish christl would come back soon! haha and hopefully she'll rem to bring some nice choc back switzerland=D

trooped down to AMK library which is just behind sikhi's home which is right next to my school! went there after ANOTHER DNCO-ED flight again.

ohyes flying.. hmm how come everytime i fly lately, the weather will choose to make me stay grounded on my particular wave?!=( but wells..guess God felt i wasnt prepared enough or sth. shant complain but still wanna hurry progress faster! haven gone solo for veryyyy long and i wanna go area solo! HEE=) its okay. i will listen to you God. your plans are ALWAYS better than what i believe it to be=)

after the dnco-ed flight after seeing lightning in area and having super winds in circuits... was quite shiok to fly in the wind that suddenly seems to flip your plane though=p

went down to visit sikhi after her canoe trng. SIKHI!!! you're really skinny.. but nvm think we should start some fattening programme haha! did some revision with her.. rather successful i think. felt the urge and motivation to study. as in there was never stress nor competition with my pals=) thats what i like about our study group.
chatted quite a bit but completed some revision nonetheless..

got reminded that family life should always always be the priority in what we do. sth i've neglected lately...

been always told that attitude towards your most basic family group shows your priorities towards other relationships. its more prominent now...

will work on it=)

yep finally updated!

10+ weeks more

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21:47|30.05.06

cheerleading!
phoo 2 late nights in a row. feel quite exhausting for me.imagine those who have to stay back to practice cheerleading.

but it was rather cool to watch those 2 practice haha=) shake babes!! next thurs at sports day...

CHEETAH HOUSE WILL SURELY WIN CHEERLEADING!! =)=) yay!

but first family day tmr=) must go try out those bungee run and haunted house! haha cant wait!

and im finally planned for flying!BIG YAY!=) hopefully i'll be able to fly again..

bye for now~=)

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21:45|21.04.06

sswweeeettt friday=)
thought today was going to be a boring day.

tension in the car.busy day in school..meeting up with teachers to get my due 'punishment'. no break!! and having to eat tuna sandwich [again! but its very nice=) yummss=D] secretly in class. rushing from class to toilet to get changed and realise after that i forgot to zip my skirt=/

anw but turns out to be a good and lovely day.

and seeing another baby with big eyes and CHUBBY CHEEKS!yumyum those cheeks were so kissable haha. cute girl=)

so all in all.. loved today=)

and thats all thanks to God for He has the plans in mind.. no matter how much i think its gonna be a bad day. leave it all to Him. never know what lies ahead of you =)

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22:20|10.02.06

update=)
Nehru was very famous for his rose which he always kept in his breast poket. A rose had been given to him by his wife on her death-bed, and he picked a fresh rose each morning in her memory.

haha came across this phrase doing some GP research. this was actually India's first PM. quite impressive=) but the rose thing is rather sweet=)

muahaha 24th feb ASIAN AEROSPACE!!=) cant wait to see what's it all about.

maybe nightflying too!! whee

been rather unfeeling towards school recently. still rather be focused on yfc but no point in lagging behind in schoolwork either since im lagging in yfc too! rar!! haha

hmm im starting to see the weak side of humans these few weeks. really glad that she's still praying and through her prayers i can sense she hasn't given up on God's words nor condemn His action towards her.. though i'd rather not witness and learn only through painful times. but guess it's all in God's almighty hands and in His time=)

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21:32|22.01.06

REDFLAG!
screwedd!! theres already 2 reports about my 180 turnabout on runway=(

and school's so stressful!darn it i just wanna go yfc and hang out with the retards..

but i still want to give thanks to God for all the things He has done in my life. its awesome!=)

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21:42|06.01.06

blarh
know how people usually describe that when you're gonna die your whole life flashes before you? think its true? hmmm=)

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00:01|22.12.05

=)
oh yay this works!! haha alright going out in aftn to meet of fourseveners!=)

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09:00|25.11.05

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hello test test

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